Craving alert!!!!

Panda Express!!!!! Sweet and sour chicken I fricken need it! I feel like I'm gonna cry and kill somebody at the same time! My god I'm scary right now! I wanna be in America so bad hate this place nothing good to EAT HERE!!! Mad face

Week 17

Ya sorry I hate how I look! I'm not gonna lie, I just look like a fat cow with a huge butt and belly to Mitch. But I don't feel like I look prego just fat. I don't care what anyone says, and skinny girls that think they were fat, when they really are not! They are just prego, ya I'm pregnant and FAT! Thanks!

Love

Art, baby's, smiles!

Today savannah and I made handprints in paint on a canvas! In American colors, of course!! It could have turned out a little better, it was a little smudged but we are happy with the results. Then later we want over to are friends to meet there new baby girl Juno! So cute, feels so strange to hold something so tiny again! :) Savannah played with her friends and from the looks of it had a blast cause she passed out early tonight! Feels like quite the productive day! :)

Love song to my daughter!

I know this is a love song, but I choose to hear the words and think of my beautiful baby girl savannah rain! I live everyday to see you smile. I'm not a super gushy cheesy mom but... the love I have for my child is so deep and strong it actually hurts to even love someone so much! I feel like I have loved her for a thousand years! I will be by her side her whole life and ill never leave her.

Friday night!

Last night I was invited out to Alexandra bar restaurant with a few friends! I was determined to go out! I needed it! I did my hails as make up big fake lashes ( a little over the top) but whatev! So I felt good to good! It Was fun to socialize, and be out of the house! Was home around 11:30ish and cozy in bed after the big brother uk final! I felt so fat in my clothes mainly because I forgot how uncomfortable it was to wear a bra it's been a along time! Haha :) oh ya and a belly pic,
I'm in week 16

Gag!!!!

I'm cursed! Tonight is the first time is sooooo long I have had mcD's i was so happy! i love french fries! and I only ate a few French fries and a raspberry pie! Not even the burger, cause I was so full I would vom if I tried too. Now I can't sleep I'm gagging, I feel like I'm Gonna puke and It like not digesting or something cause I can't lay down. What's happening? a few months ago I could eat a while meal plus a pie or ice cream no problem. :( Ahhh I feel green never again.

Where did that come from?

I woke up with energy? What what? Haha first day in so long I cleaned the whole house mopped dished dusted you name it. It's been a while since I have felt I had the power to clean that good! Savannah had fun helping too! Then we had a little photo shoot. She has to be bribed now to take her picture!! So not fun I like we she used to love having her picture taken. Guess I wore her out. :)

Girls night!

Love it!

Happy day!

After being in a really terrible mood yesterday, my hormones were all over the damn place. But Woke up this morning feeling like I have more energy! Learned my friend has her baby girl!! The Sun is shining bright! This is a beautiful day! Lots to be thankful for! :) congrats to Joni and Veronica, Mikine and Nova and their new baby Juno!!! <3

Bad mood

Someday

You know it's bad when...

You seriously consider buying some adult diapers cause your so tired of going to the bathroom all night long! I drink so much water I'm having to pee all the time! It's getting to crazy! I'm so over it!!! Ahhhh

Battle scars.

These battle scars, don’t look like they’re fading
Don’t look like they’re ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle

I feel like I'm missing out on my own life. But it's not.

I wish I couldn't feel, I wish I couldn't love
I wish that I could stop cause it hurts so much


Hoping wounds heal, but it never does
That's because you're at war with love



These battle scars, don’t look like they’re fading
Don’t look like they’re ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle

Under ground pimples!

So I read this thing on Pinterest about models using a Advil liquid gel if the have a pimple to make it go down in swelling! So in Sweden we used ipren it's the same thing just a swedish brand, so I tried it. I took a needle and poked an little hole in the liquid gel and dabbed it on my zit! It actually worked it took the pain away and when I woke up the zip was almost gone! I tried a few more times works amazingly! Live this trick!

Django

dr king schultz is my new hero! Love him in this movie! Love love loved it! Quentin Tarantino won my heart with this one! I'm not big on guts and gor but this movie was awesome!

Sleep time!!

Tonight was the first night savannah cried and wouldn't let me go at bed time. its Ricky's turn to put her to bed, so I hugged her and said goodnight! But she wanted me, broke my heart but I explained to her, daddy's taking you ill be there soon. I not and never have been one for the "cry it out" method with baby's! I have never put my baby to sleep upset. Just my opinion, but bed time should be a peaceful comfortable time. I don't know how people can listen to there kids scream and not wanna hold them. That's just me. I wish it was easy just put her in bed and say goodnight love you and walk out, but it's not that way over here! Every night we brush her teeth, get her pjs on! Then go lay down I hold her hand and tell her a story or read to her. Then say night night I love you! And I stop talking to her until she falls asleep. It takes about 30 to 45 min depending on how tired she is. Some people might think it's nuts that I do that. But personally it's better for her and me for her to fall asleep happy and calm feeling safe. And I would rather lay next to her for 45 min then hear her cry and scream for her mommy for 45 min. And some might say well if you did this from the start she wouldn't cry anymore? not true! i know people's kids that's still cry at 4 years old at bed time. When she was a baby it's was pretty easy we would hold her or rock her to sleep and then put her in her bed! She does sleep in our room but she has always been in her own bed! And once once she's asleep, I leave the room and go do my own thing. Every one has there own way of doing things and I say what ever works for you! But I don't believe baby's learn to fall asleep on their own if you leave them to scream it out, they just cry so much and get so exhausted there little emotions shut down, and that's why they fall asleep. Because they are tired of crying, And feel abandoned. Sad way to fall asleep I think.

Sunday!

My husband can be funny sometimes! Made me a menu for breakfast lol

Savannah was so cute this morning when I woke up, I said good morning she didn't answer me so I went to see why she was so busy she was so concentrated on stacking toys haha! I know I'm saying this cause she's mine but I think she so smart! :)

California chicken burgers!

It's was for dinner!

Sun and cold!

So freaken cold but it was so pretty we had to get out! My hair froze it was -18 not liveable! :)

We love to tango with aunt lissa!

Savannah and Melissa making funny faces! Can't wait till my sister/best friend gets here in June!!! June come fast!

Just sayin!

Lol! I found this girl on Instagram! She posted pic of her self when she was little! I thought wow she look like savannah a little! Look how she turned out!! Haha it's only silly but maybe my kid will like something like this in 15 years! :p I'm only playing, this is just for fun! Doubt she will look like her. But I don't care how she looks, I just want her to be healthy and happy!

Style love! H&M

So I been told..

By my dad... that I have a lot of strong opinions! This true! But I never force my opinions on anyone. I don't go around on Facebook reading people's status and making comments against them. If I don't agree with it, I just ignore it because that person is entitled to their own opinion. Why can't people give me the same respect? I can't even post something that's got nothing to do with anyone or anything in their life but they still have to comment, Im not asking your advice, or trying to start a decision. I'm stating my thoughts on my Facebook! If you don't like it, pass it by. It's not hard. I do it all day long. I'm so tired of Facebook or maybe they friends I have on their because it seems no matter what I post. Someone seems to haves problem even it's its nothing to have a problem about! I'm pregnant, I'm grumpy and I don't wanna be messed with at all. Period. Gurrrr

Good ones!